HeadLikeaHole

LIVEJOURNAL, I FORGOT ALL ABOUT YOU!

poconos, here i come! see you next thursday, fuckkkers.

my name's erica and im a loser.

oh, how i fucking HATE being sick. would someone like to make me some chicken soup?

where do i go from here?

so i just went to the movies with my brother. we saw pirates of the carribbean 2. overall, i was very impressed. it was a very long movie, but i was very entertained. and the ending made my jaw drop! holy shitt. still havent gotten over it. so tonight? might go to the break, gotta see. brother's going to the city to see Lifetime, and parents went to seaside today with their best friends. sodont know when they're gonna be home.



mmm. comment.

Patrick.




well, what else is there to think about when i hear that name? bottom line, i miss him.still. its ridiculous. i cant tell him, probably because he knows, and because im wayy too chicken shit to do so. nothing would change his mind, although i wish it would. it proves how selfish i am. but, there's just somethin' about him. oh well, i guess i should be used to wishing for things i cant get, or can no longer have..:/.




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Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
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shit.

SCHOOL IS OVER!!!!!!!

well, after stressing out about it for months, i've completed my history research paper at last. and it feels good. hopefully i'll get at least a B on it. knowing my luck, probably not. i've been so behind on it, but today, i decided it was time to just get it over with. and seven pages later, it was done.

so prom, well..it was alright. i got my hair done at 3:30 that day, went home, got dressed and did my make-up, my mom and dad took some pictures, and then my mom drove me over to Kevin's. it was already pouring by this time. go figure.-_- when i got to Kevin's, he actually wasn't there. His mom answered the door and let me in, and told me he went to pick Wayne and Heather up. so i sat in the living room, Nicole came downstairs and started taking some pictures. i wanted to kill myself, lol. im definitely not a photogenic person. Kevin and Heather got back 20 minutes later. Wayne didnt come with them because he wasnt ready yet. loser. hah, so his sister was going to drop him off. so the 3 of us just chilled in the living room, and Kevin gave me my corsage. oh man, it was SO pretty. i loved it. when Wayne got there, everyone started taking pictures. my god....after a thousand pictures, all i could see were those little spots you get in front of your eyes from the flash. lol, then as we thought we were about to leave, our parents wanted to take MORE pictures outside because it stopped raining. then, we FINALLY left. we didnt have a limo or anything like that, and honestly, i was completely fine with it. kevin's dad drove us, in this friggin ENORMOUS van type of thing. not a mini-van or anything, it was like a damn hotel room in a van. lol you could stand up in it, and there was a tv, and the seats were like couches. pretty awesome. lol, the traffic was pretty bad, but we got there within 25-30 minutes. when we got there, so many people were outside. after kevin's dad left, we went to the side, had a quick cigarette, then went in.

ok, im not going to go through every single thing that happened that night, so lets make it a little shorter. pretty much, it started off as everyone standingin the lobby, greeting each other, taking pictures, and drinking soda. when we went inside, we found our table, sat down and relaxed for a while. none of us really wanted to dance, because that's something the four of us have in common: we hate dancing. lol but we agreed on dancing whenever there was a slow dance. so we danced twice before the food came out. we had some kind of chicken with rice, and veggies. it was alright. not the greatest thing i've had, but hey, its a hotel, not a 5-star restaurant, so i wasnt expecting filet mignon or anything. after we ate that, we just went to other people's tables, talked to some people, and went back for dessert. it was chocolate mousse, in one of those edible chocolate shells. once again, not too bad. after that was when the prom started to go downhill. because none of us wanted to dance, it was EXTREMELY loud and crazy, and all 4 of us were fiending for a cigarette. lol, the rule of the prom was that if you left the hotel, you couldnt come back in. so we left the room, headed towards the bathrooms, and thought about what to do the rest of the time. we decided to just walk around the lobby area for a bit, and thats when the ridiculous shit happened. these 2 cops who were guarding the doors, saw us sitting on a few chairs right near the room. other kids were sitting there earlier. we werent doing anything wrong, just sitting there, relaxing. and they come over to us, and go "um, you guys need to get back in that room". so we told them we just came out here for some air, because it was really crowded and noisy in the room and the one guy goes "well your prom is in there, not here. so lets go". i know it probably doesnt sound like a big deal, but we really werent enjoying ourselves by that time anyway, and it was almost 10, so we thought about leaving. after kevincalled his parents and asked them to come pick us up, we started heading for the door so we could wait outside. and once again, the cops went and stood in front of the door, and told us to go back inside. we told him we were leaving, and we were gonna be waiting outside for kevin's parents. they started giving us all this shit about how we werent allowed to leave and to go back and blah blah blah. Heather finally said "look, our school even told us that the rule was that you could leave early, but if you left, you couldnt come back. we're having a sucky time, so we want to leave. and you have no right trying to stop us." and the cop literally got in her face and said "well, here's our little twist: no one is allowed to leave the prom. so get back inside." ..so we got really pissed, and said something to Dr. Wanko about wanting to leave. to make a long story short(too late), we FINALLY ended up leaving, went back to Kevin's for a while, kevin gave me a hoodie and a pair of his shorts to wear, and he took me home around midnight.



holy shit. this was a loooong post. anyone who read this whole thing, i give you soo much credit. but i doubt you will, because you fuckers dont comment me anymore. thanks.

prom is in 2 days. oh mann. i gotta get my nails done tomorrow, get my hair done, get my damn dress from the drycleaners, oh and lose 20 pounds before friday. because im gross. i gotta stop gaining so much weight. its so nasty and its starting to take its toll on me. ahhh. ok, not feeling well. fucking migraines are killer.




you fuckers should comment me.='[

updating time. about time, eh? well, this week has been...interesting so far. so as of today, it looks like im definitely going to prom with kevin. we're going with wayne, and his girlfriend heather,who is a pretty rad chick by the way. from what kevin and wayne told me, we're going in a limo? sounds good to me. but uh yea...so thats coming up in a few weeks. im not the type of person who would usually go crazy for this type of thing, but something inside is telling me that i actually might enjoy myself, so i think i might need this. we'll see what happens. soooo...i loved getting comments in my last entry. wanna continue that?

so, i FINALLY made up all the history homework stuff for last marking period, and when i give it in tomorrow, a huge weight will be lifted off my shoulders. its about time. i just cant wait for this schoolyear to end. i mean, of course every student says that, but i REALLY mean it. and there's a chance i may be going to prom? i dunno if it's actually gonna happen at all, but its a possibility. kevin(yes, nicole's brother) sorta unofficially asked me to go, and i told him that i'd talk to my parents about it. they pretty much said as long as i keep my grades up, they see no problem with it. which is cool, right? i've only been to one actual prom before, but it was my cousin's,(no i dont count the 8th grade dance as a "prom"). but his prom was in union, so obviously i didnt know anyone there. go figure. but at least i'd know people this time. but i guess we'll see what happens. so..yea, havent updated here in a few days. but hopefully i can get out this weekend. anyone wanna hang out?






comments would make me smile.

so its 6 something in the morning. dont know why the fuck im up, but im about to go back to sleep. but yea. bottom line

im fucking through with people and their bullshit.



and that is all.

my hair...i got it cut!=O and its not all light like when i had the blonde hilights in it. its darker now. i miss my old hair. hmph.but this will do for now.

ew, i feel like complete shit.

well. today was definitely something else.
for those who dont already know,
this morning Whitney Salas was killed in a car accident.
She was 16, and a junior at PHS.
i didnt know her very well personally, but you could say we were acquaintances. i got to see her everyday on the way to 10th period.
and i did talk to her sometimes last year, and over the summer.
she was a sweet girl, and her life was cut too short.
she will definetely be missed by many, and i'm one of them.


R.I.P.
Whitney Salas
4/22/06
you'll always be in our hearts. you won't be forgotten.

wadddupp.
how's everyone doing on this lovely Friday morning?
well not lovely, but its Friday! thank the Lord.
im in the library for biology, and im sitting next to the most amazing person in the world. seriously.
MY BFF KRISTA MICHAL LUTHMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<3<3<3<3<3
yes yes, she's been in here since 2nd period, and we're staying in here for 6/7, and then heading to lunch!
but yea, so i just worked on a project for bio, and it was the same exact project we did last marking period.
*slaps forehead* My teacher is a "dee dee dee"=]
haha so anyway, yea..its friday.
whats everyone up to for tonight?
apparently, im on "grounding" again, since Spring Break is over. fuck that.
im going out anyway! what a rebel i am. JUST KIDDING.
but yea, i'll see if my parents will give me a break this weekend, cuz then next weekend is my birthday!
@#^!(@*~$%@^~#&(%@&*!(#&^@#&~*
im not sure what im doing for my birthday, if anything.
i know i definetely wanna spend time with my friends, so if any of you have an idea, let me know?
krista suggested a hotel party, and im taking it into consideration.
could be fun, right?
but we'll see.
welll, not much else to say. maybe i'll update later tonight.
Krista's sitting next to me....looking puzzled..*ponders*
i love Krista=]

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i have a splitting headache. but who cares about that.
sooo.how's everyone doing?
how was everyone's spring break?
overall, mine was ok, got boring at times, but ok other than that.
i got to go out at least a few days so that was good, considering that i've been grounded.
and my uncle helped me out MAJORLY on that history project.god bless him.
school was gay.

1st- health...GAH! i feel so weird saying that. i miss gym already. meh. but we talked about..well, your health.

2nd- choir. sang.*slaps forehead* obviously!

3rd- english. it was so weird because we listened to Tool. Hamas(my teacher) i guess listens to them, and said that one of their songs kind of relates to the theme of Macbeth, so we listened to it. lol the song was like 8 minutes long. after that, we just discussed random shit.

4/5- biology. would've been a great period because she wasnt there for the SECOND DAY IN A ROW! but of course, she crushed my dream of being gone forever when she walked into the class 15 minutes before class was over.-_-

6/7- hspa math. same old shit. hate that class.

8- lunch! sat with my Krista of course, we talked about a whole bunch of shit. stuff going on between her and her cousin, and whatever else. i love Krista:]

9th- algebra. well..we took notes. and thats about it.

10th- history. we pretty much worked on this group assignment we've been doing all week, a newspaper thingy.

now im home, my brother's behind me watching Hostel, and im fucking starving. comments. leave 'em

so its easter. whoo?!
i dunno. there's people over here.
my cousin, his girlfriend, and her best friend are behind me.
watching Final Destination
everyone's probably leaving soon.
im happy because i wanna go to fucking sleep already.
i dunno what was wrong with me today.
overall, i was just in a shitty mood the entire day.
and im still feeling it.
meh.